One Month Since...

It's been one month since I've moved out on my own. During the past month, I've had many struggles, and have discovered so many things about me that I never knew before. As well, the "Onion" has peeled a little as well. I also have learned many, many things from my Teacher that I'm still trying to digest.

Once again I was reminded that, "I can't change anyone." Even if I want my family to change some how, they won't. Even if I hope for them to change, they won't. It's a funny concept but, very TRUE. I realize this now after struggling with this inside my heart. Yes, I can feel a little frustrated but, I'm realizing that there is no point cause they will start to change when they are ready. All I can try to do is just accept them for who they are but, it will take lots of work on my part to get to this point. I'm willing to wait but in the mean time, I've decided not to deal with them.

Another great lesson that I have learned from my Teacher was that, I can't be kind to people unless, I'm kind to myself first. I had difficulty understanding this concept of BEING KIND, but now I get it. Yes, the ultimate goal is to be KIND to others no matter what but, everyone needs to learn to be KIND to themselves before anything, EVEN IF IT HURTS OTHER PEOPLE. It's important to "ROMANCE" with ourselves first (This does not mean any thing perverse). It just means, in order to find happiness, we need to learn to spend quality time with ourselves and discover who we are and just play with life and opportunities that come our way.

Just last week my Teacher suggested that I go do something that I have never done before and just "Romance" with myself. So, I went on a Artist Walk and I walked for 2 and a half hours. After spending these few ours "Romancing" with myself, I felt so much joy, happiness, and excitement that I have never experienced or felt before. It was so great! This is the feeling of expanding happiness in yourself. The thing is, after this experience....I could not seem to focus on my other responsibilities but, thats another thing we need to balance in our lives.

So, during this one month of freedom and discovery, I've made progress and I feel that I'm growing up just a little bit more. I know that my Happiness is just aroud the corner. I just need to realize it and discover it.