These days my heart has been feeling very heavy and troubled every time some one in my family calls (it's like, I can't get away from them). I find true happiness in my heart when I am living my life without them and I truly want my own happiness to grow and grow and not get squashed every time they call. It's like they don't even care if a portion of my heart of happiness is broken off every time they call.
True HAPPINESS....Do people even know what this feels like or what exactly it is??
I think for the time being I've experienced it in my heart and I desire to hold this happiness and live my own life. For now, I've found it except....YES, FAMILY!!! I'm on the verge of completely blocking them out. If they push any more buttons....I think I would feel like, I would want to disown them.
My Teacher teaches me to be KIND. At first I thought being KIND was I had to put others first before myself and my heart but.....later, I learned that I can't be KIND to others unless I am KIND to myself first. I realized that I'm being KIND to myself staying away from my family.
A few weeks ago I went on a Artist's Walk and Date and during this time, I did something that I have never done before in my life. After this day, MY HEART, MY WHOLE BEING was so HAPPY. I can't even explain what I felt felt. This feeling stayed with me for the whole week. This is called "ROMANCING" with yourself. I want to feel this feeling all the time. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. IS IT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR??
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Hello, you have an interesting blog here. I think all of us feel the way you do sometimes, just want to get away. Less pressures. A need to just be by ourselves. And when we can get out little time for ourselves, we can come back to our responsibility, renewed for what comes next! Your teacher is right! Be Kind to all and expecially to yourself!!
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