Hmm....

These days I find life kind of....Hmm.....I can't really describe it. For one thing, it is challenging and yet through the challenges, so much magic happens. Life in general seems to be a Learning Process, Adventure, Listening, Trusting, Believing, Patients, Being a Friend, and expanding happiness.

During the last two weeks, I have spent a lot of time "Romancing" with myself and discovering things about myself that I never knew before. I also, ran into many challenges but, have come out of the struggles only to find out that I already know many things, I just need to be more patient and have more faith. Everything takes time is one BIG thing I realized. Whether or not I want it to or not.....Everything takes time. During this waiting time, all I need to continue to do is keep doing the things that make me happy. Then, something magical will happen. I will just know what I really want to do. It's cool that way but, I NEED TO HAVE MORE PATIENTS AND JUST TRUST. HAVE FAITH.

Also, I realized that even if it's just a little bit, I'm growing up. I'm not the same person as I was when I first moved out a month and a half ago. Each day I'm finding out WHO I AM and WHAT I WAN T TO BE. It's a cool process and I know, I'm growing. Even now I know that I have made lots of progress with everything that I'm learning from my Teacher and daily experiences.

Hmm...Yesterday was Father's day and I didn't want to meet my parents at all cause, i wanted to distance myself from my family for awhile until I'm ready and until they realize that I'm not their toy or belonging....But, we met outside so, I figured it would be ok. I went to meet them not expecting anything. I visioned them as the same people who probably haven't changed one bit. Well, much to my visioning, I was right. They haven't changed at all. My mom had dragged my dad out who, could barely come out of the car or walk straight because he had drank too much. I was a little disappointed but, REALITY is, THAT I CAN'T CHANGE THEM or EXPECT THEM TO CHANGE. I guess everyone has there place in the Universe and when they are ready, people will change. Until then, I plan on keeping my distance because, it actually makes me happy not seeing or talking to them all the time. I feel like I'm becoming my own person. I'M STANDING UP FOR WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT FOR ME.

I've come to learn that, "NO ONE CAN TELL ANYONE WHAT TO DO". It's a cool kind of FREEDOM we all have access too. Just because they are flesh and blood doesn't mean that they are considered FAMILY. Family is a group of people (whoever they are) who truly cares for each other, doesn't judge (well, you shouldn't judge anyone any ways), listens, and respects. This is what I think of a FAMILY. But, unfortunately there are many families that lack these simple and basic principles. It makes me sad.

Well, this was basically my past few weeks.

Hmm.....