Time To Let Go....
This evening I had some time to kinda sort out things with my inner heart and random people that are around me. It was kinda interesting to think about all the people that come into your life. Whether it be for a short time or long time, or if you learn anything from them or if they learn something from you, or even those who you work around with every day or just pass by on the street, or even those who you work with. Life and relationships are very interesting and I realized, also they could be very complicated. I realized though that, friendships and relationships shouldn't be complicated or stressful in any way and if they do...then, maybe it was just not meant to happen.
This evening I was able to answer some of the questions that was lingering in my heart and I feel better and I want to believe that because I was able to find some answers to these questions, I'm a better person for that. Now, I just want to get on with my life and not think about past friendships, or relationships that were just not meant to be. I think every one goes through this once in a while.
This person that I wish not to talk to any more....or possibly ever not see (but that's not going to happen....for reasons I wish not to say at the moment) I want to say "Thank You for all the things that you taught me and for teaching me One Important Thing, "That I'm not Any One's Toy." I realize that I don't even need to be some else even in front of you cause, every one IS, who they are and little by little.....people change to whatever it is that thy would want to be. I want to forget you but, I know in my heart I will always treasure the stories that you told me but....WAS EVERYTHING TRUE?? It's a strange question to wonder about but....I wish I just knew this One Answer. WAS EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT ME, TOLD ME, and the STORIES YOU TOLD ME TRUE?? A part of me really wants to believe this but....another little part of me doesn't think everything was true....just because of the way you kinda never really explained yourself or....it just seemed like you kinda abandoned everything and kinda left me in the middle of nowhere. Well, any ways...It's no big deal and I Wish You the Best and I hope one day your dreams and desires come true. Good Bye for now."
Well, I guess that's that.....I can close this chapter of my life and move on with it. Good Night!
This evening I was able to answer some of the questions that was lingering in my heart and I feel better and I want to believe that because I was able to find some answers to these questions, I'm a better person for that. Now, I just want to get on with my life and not think about past friendships, or relationships that were just not meant to be. I think every one goes through this once in a while.
This person that I wish not to talk to any more....or possibly ever not see (but that's not going to happen....for reasons I wish not to say at the moment) I want to say "Thank You for all the things that you taught me and for teaching me One Important Thing, "That I'm not Any One's Toy." I realize that I don't even need to be some else even in front of you cause, every one IS, who they are and little by little.....people change to whatever it is that thy would want to be. I want to forget you but, I know in my heart I will always treasure the stories that you told me but....WAS EVERYTHING TRUE?? It's a strange question to wonder about but....I wish I just knew this One Answer. WAS EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT ME, TOLD ME, and the STORIES YOU TOLD ME TRUE?? A part of me really wants to believe this but....another little part of me doesn't think everything was true....just because of the way you kinda never really explained yourself or....it just seemed like you kinda abandoned everything and kinda left me in the middle of nowhere. Well, any ways...It's no big deal and I Wish You the Best and I hope one day your dreams and desires come true. Good Bye for now."
Well, I guess that's that.....I can close this chapter of my life and move on with it. Good Night!
3 comments:
Rachel..you continue to surprise and amaze me.
I'm so glad you understand that you are not anyone's toy! You are YOU, created in God's image for His amazing purposes that will bring you joy. Your search for truth is one I share, and I hope that you do eventually find the truth that you are wondering about.
Smiles from far away, to you!
Thank You Face of the Sunshine! Yes, I realize that I am made in God's image and I know there is a purpose for my life. Right now, I think it's just discovering what kind of person I am NOW and just living my life in the moment. The more I think about my purpose, I come up with a conclusion that I am here to discover who I am and just enjoy that feeling.
See ya
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