Everything is ONE...

Last night I realized so many things that I can't even think to imagine. Everything I have learned since January of this year has all come together. I never even thought that everything would be connected. I just thought that things were just as they appeared but, things are not. Everything is ONE. It's all connected in this BIG circle and nothing is separate from each other. It all intertwines with each other.

My Teacher taught me once that "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON".....Following this, "THERE ARE NO MISTAKES".....As well as, "WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT".....My Teacher still says this to me when I ask "WHEN?, WHEN IS THE TIME RIGHT?".....Well, I realized that in everything the right time comes when I am ready inside to receive the gifts from the Universe. All I need to do in the mean time is live in the NOW and always keep a look out for the gifts. Also, My Teacher has told me, "PATIENTS IS COURAGE"....I realized that during times of frustration and anxiety, I need to be more patient, as well as vigilant and be ready for to receive the gifts from the Universe. Everything is kind of interconnected. Nothing is really separate. Last night, everything made sense. It was amazing!

Everything is ONE and yet, they are so different but, when you look into this light...you are able to wait and see the beauty in everything and in every step we take.

YESTERDAY!

Yesterday was a cool day! I spent most of the day alone just Romancing with Myself and I realized many great things about Myself. First of all, I really missed spending time with Myself. It was a great feeling and I truly do find my Happiness when I spend time alone.

The word of the day was "Self Reliant".....and I realized so many cool things about having this Freedom to be Independent and Live the way I want too. It's a Freedom that we all take advantage of or, we do not necessarily accept our Life as having total Freedom. Everything just sort of revolved around being Free and having the Freedom to Choose.

I mentioned in my earlier postings that I have a Great Teacher who teaches me so many great things.... All my life, NO ONE has said to me that they are proud of me. My Teacher has been the only One who has said this to me and every time I do, My Heart is Happy and I've come to a point where, I just want to do the Right Thing and I found myself not being able to make a decision without asking My Teacher first. Well, yesterday I realized that it's great that My Teacher is proud of me but, I need to be independent. I'm the Only one that can choose for Myself.

I learned many great lessons this week and I will always make My Teacher proud and I will continue to grow and share my progress with you all.

Last Night I Realized.....

During the last few days, I hit the bottom. In other words, I had a very bad last few days. So many things seem to happening all at once and I totally missed what I was supposed to learn and realize about myself. Last night was the turning point. I realized so many things I never realized before about myself.

I have a really good friend who I consider as my Big Sister. She teaches me many many good and true things and she means a lot to me. I realized last night before I fell asleep that, once in a while when she says she is "PROUD OF ME", it makes my heart really happy and also, I feel like I'm special and I'm finally doing something right in my life. All my life no one has ever said this to me. I realized that this is why I always ask her questions as to what I should do.

I am so grateful for her kindness and I wish that in the future I can still make her proud of me.

After all these questions...

After really looking into my heart and writing my last post, I learned a lot. It seems to me that when we have days when we fall, we get up stronger in some ways and that is when we can truly change and find out who we are on the inside. LIFE IS NOT EASY! I'm learning this and some days I'm grateful and some days like today, I wonder if I'm capable of living this life with gratitude.

AM I READY??

WHAT KIND OF LIFE DO I WANT TO LIVE??

WILL I EVER BE THE PERSON I WANT TO BE??

You know, the answers to all these questions are inside of me. All I need to do is realize them....I already know this but, some of the time it just doesn't come to me fast enough and I make a mistake. I learn from the mistakes but, I just rather not go through the process any more. I guess always look for the easy way out but, if I'm going to listen to my own advice, I should not run away cause, "CRY BABIES NEVER WIN!"

Well, I guess this is all I want to say today. See ya!

Always remember that life is a learning process and that when we get up, we are all stronger because we get back up!

Ever FEEL like THIS.....??

EVER FEEL LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS??
ever feel like everything is sooo hard sometimes??
EVER FEEL FREE YET TRAPPED??
ever feel like you can't TRUST any one??
EVER FEEL LIKE NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME??
ever feel like you'll never be right because your not getting something, your not understanding something??
EVER FEEL LIKE ONE PART OF YOUR LIFE IS PERFECT AND THE OTHER PART...WELL, YOU JUST CAN'T FACE??
ever feel like just giving up??
EVER FEEL LIKE JUST FORGETTING EVERYTHING AND STARTING FRESH BUT, YOU CAN'T??
ever feel like no listens to what you say??
EVER FEEL LIKE YOU REALLY WANT TO BE HAPPY BUT OTHERS ARE NOT LETTING YOU??
ever feel like your doing everything right but, in the end you know your not right??
EVER FEEL LIKE SOME ONES SLAVE??
ever feel like you want to stick up for yourself but, you don't want to hurt other people's feelings??
EVER FEEL LIKE PEOPLE ALWAYS NEED THINGS FROM YOU AND YET YOU HAVE NOTHING TO GIVE BECAUSE YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IF YOU ARE DOING THE RIGHT THING??
ever feel like you just don't belong??
EVER FEEL LIKE YOU CAN NEVER FORGIVE SOME PEOPLE??
ever feel like you just want people to hear you out??
EVER FEEL LIKE THIS??
ever feel like your just not smart enough??