Time To Let Go....

This evening I had some time to kinda sort out things with my inner heart and random people that are around me. It was kinda interesting to think about all the people that come into your life. Whether it be for a short time or long time, or if you learn anything from them or if they learn something from you, or even those who you work around with every day or just pass by on the street, or even those who you work with. Life and relationships are very interesting and I realized, also they could be very complicated. I realized though that, friendships and relationships shouldn't be complicated or stressful in any way and if they do...then, maybe it was just not meant to happen.

This evening I was able to answer some of the questions that was lingering in my heart and I feel better and I want to believe that because I was able to find some answers to these questions, I'm a better person for that. Now, I just want to get on with my life and not think about past friendships, or relationships that were just not meant to be. I think every one goes through this once in a while.

This person that I wish not to talk to any more....or possibly ever not see (but that's not going to happen....for reasons I wish not to say at the moment) I want to say "Thank You for all the things that you taught me and for teaching me One Important Thing, "That I'm not Any One's Toy." I realize that I don't even need to be some else even in front of you cause, every one IS, who they are and little by little.....people change to whatever it is that thy would want to be. I want to forget you but, I know in my heart I will always treasure the stories that you told me but....WAS EVERYTHING TRUE?? It's a strange question to wonder about but....I wish I just knew this One Answer. WAS EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT ME, TOLD ME, and the STORIES YOU TOLD ME TRUE?? A part of me really wants to believe this but....another little part of me doesn't think everything was true....just because of the way you kinda never really explained yourself or....it just seemed like you kinda abandoned everything and kinda left me in the middle of nowhere. Well, any ways...It's no big deal and I Wish You the Best and I hope one day your dreams and desires come true. Good Bye for now."

Well, I guess that's that.....I can close this chapter of my life and move on with it. Good Night!

DAY OFF....

Today was my day off from work and when I woke up this morning I made a list of all the things I wanted to do today but, I didn't accomplish much today. It's like, the whole day went by soooo fast and now, it's an hour away from being tomorrow.


I walked the long way home from Starbucks and as I was walking I was reflecting on the day and I thought maybe....just maybe some times this is how it is when One just follows the flow of the Universe instead of always trying to do things by a certain time. I realized that even some times it's ok to just NOT get everything on my "To Do" list done. It's ok to just kinda let a day go by just accomplishing a few things. Now that it's time to sleep, I'm not tired :) and I feel like kind of finishing my "To Do" list.


The days seem to be flying by so fast. Some times I feel like, I want to fly but then there are also days when I wish the time, world, and life would just kind of slow down a bit so that I could actually enjoy some of the things I eat, watch, read, and everything else I need to do or want to do. So it seems that over all I had a good day and on my next day off I kind of want to experience the same kind of thing where I can flow with the Universe and just do what my heart wants to do at whatever time I am given. It's cool how we are given that freedom and power.

What is This Life??

Hmm....I have been thinking about this since yesterday.....My whole life has totally sucked, until NOW. My whole life NO one has taught me anything about LIFE, HAPPINESS, LOVE, Or anything else. Basically, I've been alone with NO one to look up too, NO one to ask questions too, NO one to talk too, ....I was alone.

WHAT IS THIS LIFE?? This question seems to be very BIG in my life these days....My life seems so good these days but I can't help wonder what kind of bad thing is going to happen next....WHAT IS THIS LIFE??

Who is any one to tell another HOW TO LIVE, WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO FEEL, WHAT TO DREAM....NO ONE CAN TELL YOU THESE THINGS...except your OWN HEART.

I wonder what my heart is truly telling me about WHAT MY LIFE IS.

The Lord is my Shepherd,
I shall not want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside quiet waters.

He restores my soul;
He guides me in the paths of righteousness
For His names' sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You have anointed my head with oil;
My cup overflows.

Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23