Journal #2: Why??

So, I was just wondering Why "OTHER" people think they know what is right for me more than I do?? It's interesting when they are doing the exact samething as I am and yet I'm wrong and they aren't. Hmm......

The past few days I've been thinking about this. It's been on my mind. I think the ONLY person who knows what is right for me, is ME! NO ONE ELSE!!!!

Now that it's off my mind.....Other than that, things have been pretty good. I don't really have much to say so I guess since I've vented for the night I will stop at this.

Journal Entry 1: It's Been a Long Time....

It's been a while since I've written anything on my blog.....Life has been very busy this year and non stopping madness. The way life really is!

Hmm.....I guess this will be the start of non stop blogging.....:)

I've found a new hidden talent. I've learned that I can bake and decorate cake without even going to a baking school. Last year I made my friends Bridal Shower cake and it turned out amazing. Since then I've been baking and decorating cakes. Of course I've taken pictures of all the ones I have created but, there are more to come. I can't wait to make my friends birthday cake in September. I'll have to post some pictures up one day.

Other than cake making nothing much has been going on. Well, the usual stuff....Life, Work, Family, Friends.... This part of my life always keeps me busy expect....I find that I would like to spend more time with people around me but, seems like there isn't enough time in one day, and during the week and some times.... even months go by without even phoning or emailing even one person. Possibly could be cause LIFE is just not as organized as I wish it would be.

There are so many things happening these days and I've been thinking a lot about "LIFE" and where this "LIFE" has taken me. Seems like it's taken me to a point where I need to realize my potential and see what I'm really interested in.

I've come upon a project that I've never done before. I'm making a cake for a really good friend's Bridal Shower....and as I was molding the roses out of gum paste...I realized that I enjoy this and I would like in the future to make more cakes for people and make them happy. So, maybe this is a test that "LIFE" is giving me. If this cake turns out to be really nice and everything I want it to be....I want to go to baking school and learn all that I can about cakes and open up my own bakery or cake store. I would love to make wedding cakes and Bridal Shower cakes for people. So, wish me luck!

Got my Ear Pierced Today...

Today I went out figuring out a way to ask my sister to come with me to get my ear pierced cause I was really scared. I don't know why but I really don't like getting needles and I just thought it would really hurt. Well, I went by myself and it didn't hurt that much. I was surpurised. When the first one went in....I said, "OH FUCK!" and the girl that was doing my piercing was laughing. It was kinda funny. Then the second one went in and it didn't hurt as much. So now, I have two earrings on each ear. It actually looks nice too.

It's been a really good year so far. I'm happy!

50 Things to Remember from 2008....

2008 has been filled with many, many memories. Things that I would like to remember and treasure throughout my life....I just wanted to share 50 things...

1. Finally knowing what I'm allergic too. It's funny cause all my life I never had allergies and all of a sudden this year....I have like full blown allergies. I'm allergic to almost everything.

2. Being nick named Dot. I really like my nick name cause my sister Tanya named me.

3. Dying my hair 3 times in 24 hours. This memory was funny.

4. First time I ever worked two jobs. I actually have growen to like working two jobs.

5. First time I sewed a blanket by hand for my grandmother.

6. First time I saw my grandma's eye surgery on the tv screen and she wasn't sleeping.

7. Window shopping with my brother Mike.

8. Going shopping at Eaton Center with my sister Tanya.

9. I got Tuna this year. He's my betta fighting fish.

10. First time I went to get my cards read and the lady was dead on but, some things I don't think it's true.

11. All the little talks I had with my sister Tanya.

12. All the littlle talks I had with my brother Mike.

13. All the doppio espresso's I had and still having.

14. Going to the dentist for the first time in like 8 or 9 years.

15. All the needles I had at the dentist.

16. All the smoke breaks I spent with and still spend with my brother Mike and sister Tanya.

17. Tersit got married.

18. All the words that my friend Stephanie, Mike, and Tanya taught me.

20. All the things that my sister Tanya has taught me and still teaches me.

21. All the things the Universe provides for me. This is cool!

22. Getting a gum ball machine.

23. Getting a Pooh blanket.

24. The cake I'll take to my grandma's home tomorrow and we will make wishes and prayers for the new year.

25. Having a white Christmas tree for Christmas.

26. Watching Jon and Kate plus 8.

27. Watching Marley. I cried at the theater cause Marley died.

28. Taking a week vacation from Starbucks in three years.

29. Getting really really sick this year. I was sick for the whole months of November. One week I had the flu, then the stomach flu and then I got bronchitis and sinus infection, then a cold. Also, after I got really really sick for two days.

30. Baby tooth broke.

31. Still loving candy.

32. Stopped drinking soda.

33. Loving living alone. It's the best!

34. Started a book of Possibilites.

35. Got present from aunt and uncle.

36. Transfered work places.

37. Got a dozen roses on Valentine's eve.

38. Went to Spaghetti Factory.

39. Went strawberry picking.

40. Almost burned my apartment down my accident. I turned on the burner to boil water for coffee while I went to go put the laundry in. I turned the wrong burner on and so something got burned. I had to call the fire alarm.

41. Realized I can't lie to my sister Tanya.

42. Opened Christmas Gifts early this year. I was surprised as to how much I got.

43. Learned and still learning a lot about computers.

44. Got promoted from my second after 3 days of hire.

45. All the people that made me laugh.

46. All the Mike's I've met this year.

47. Meeting another Rachel.

48. Wanted to get a pet lobster but ....not this year.

49. All the great books I've read this year.

50. All the people who have helped me and still helps me.

Cleaning Out the Old....Remembering the Day.

I have been spending the last few days cleaning my place. Throwing things out.....I have a lot of JUNK! But, I don't think I'll be done tonight. I'll have to continue to clean and throw things out tomorrow after work. Hopefully I'll finish before the first new week of the new year.

On my way to down town today I went to visit my former manager/friend at her work wtih out knowing if she would be there or not....luckily she was there and I got to see her for a bit. It was nice! She said she has a gift for me and it's House Season 4. The funny thing is, I've been wanting to get House Season 4 for a while but wasn't able too....that's actually why I was heading down town was to get it....it's funny how life works. It made me think again about how blessed I am. This year has been kind of strange and the Universe is still surprising me and providing me with everything I need and everything I want.

So, I spent the day looking for gifts for my former manager/ friend and for her husband and I was able to find great things. I hope they like it. Also, I spent some time with my brother and sister. It was fun as always! I think I know what I would like to do in the new year besides working....I want ot save my money so that hopefully by Christmas I can get a few BIG things that I want such as a bigger tv and computer parts so that I can start building my own computer. I can't wait to build it......it's going to have SOOOO much power. Well, I guess this is all I'll write for tonight. I'm still trying to clean and stuff. See ya!

50 Things About ME!

1. Orange is my favorite color.

2. I love Winnie the Pooh.

3. I like to read.

4. I like to eat Candy.

5. I like to help people.

6. I hate people that come over and have stinky feet, or stinky feet in general.

7. I never watched Simpsons.

8. I like to spend my money but learning to save.

9. I hate people that walk straight into my face.

10. I hate neighbours that talk really loud, really late at night.

11. I watch movies over and over and over again.

12. House is my favortie tv show.

13. I hate it that I'm still waiting to get House Season 4.

14. I hate waiting for people who doesn't come at the time they say they would come.

15. Learning about Life is a journey.

16. I like to believe that "Possibilities" will come true in the future.

17. I hate people that talk really loud on the phone.

18. I like to take photos.

19. I hate rain cause I usually get really, really wet.

20. It takes me almost an hour to get ready every day.

21. I work two jobs and nothing really to show for it but, that's ok cause it keeps me busy and out of trouble.

22. I don't understand those people who drink all the time.

23. I like doing puzzles.

24. I like to sleep when I get a chance.

25. I like to drink coffee but, not just any coffee usually just a doppio espresso.

26. I like how the week goes by really fast.

27. I don't understand why I know sooo many "Mike's"....I'm guessing the world is yelling at me to get a boyfriend named "Mike".

28. I find it amusing that some of my friends find me amusing. Am I really funny??

29. I hate it that "EVERYTHING is so EXPENSIVE".

30. I hate it that every time I got to the dentist it hurts.

31. I don't understand people that lack "Public Transportation" manners.

32. I often wonder why outside food tastes so much better than food I cook at home. What do they put in it?

33. I love Christmas.

34. I like to eat fruits. Well, the fruits that I'm not allergic too.

35. I wonder why I have so many allergies.

36. I like to live life as it happens.

37. I learn interesting phrases from my friends.

38. I hate people that push on the subway.

39. I like to cook for peole.

40. I love to live on my own.

41. I like to write.

42. I like getting paid every friday. One of the reasons why I like working two jobs.

43. I'm thankful that I have a great brother and sister.

44. I don't really like to clean but, I do any ways.

45. I hate people that lie.

46. I love cake.

47. I would like to have a dog one day or a pet lobster or both.

48. I'm almost done.

49. I can't believe how fast year 2008 went by.

50. I hate people don't listen properly.